So we finally had our conference call with the birth mom today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was crazy! I mean we were supposed to have it a week ago, so there was a little build up of anticipation, but at the same time, it made it easier because so much time had passed...The agency had told us that the birth mom wanted a semi-open adoption so we went into the call talking that way, and thinking that way...But come to find out, she wants it completely closed. So that was a surprise. We are totally fine with that. We told her that we would keep everything current at that agency in case she ever changed her mind. I think she made up her mind, and is just ready to try to move on.
So I felt a little sad about it, but I'm trusting God. And like my wise sister in law said...there was a reason that we thought one way about it going in to the call...because we acted differently than we might of had we thought the other way. So God knows.
As it stands we leave Monday, have dinner with her Monday night, and have a baby Tuesday! WOW
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Well, well weeeelllllll...we got a call from the agency today:)
So, this afternoon the agency called and said the birth mom is on her way back to Utah! We kinda wondered if she was going to come back. So now we have the next thing which is to have a phone conference with her, hopefully tomorrow. If that goes well we will be heading to Utah Monday.
So for my prayer warrior friends!!!!
I'm asking people to pray, of course:)
I'm praying for the Lord's will. So if this is the child He has for us, I'm praying that He will give the birth mom a peace in her heart and mind while we talk. I'm praying that we will be natural, and full of love and grace for her.
We thank you all for reading, for caring about us, and for praying.
So for my prayer warrior friends!!!!
I'm asking people to pray, of course:)
I'm praying for the Lord's will. So if this is the child He has for us, I'm praying that He will give the birth mom a peace in her heart and mind while we talk. I'm praying that we will be natural, and full of love and grace for her.
We thank you all for reading, for caring about us, and for praying.
Learning to wait:)
So, this is so interesting, but we have learned over and over that waiting on the Lord and His will is the only sure thing. We are so happy for this because that is all we want. You cannot count on anything in this process, and as it says in James, if it is the Lord's will this or that will happen....
It's funny, the minute you think you know something, you don't:) Or the minute you think it's going to go like this, it doesn't:)
I say it with a true smile because what I stated above, Josh and I have both learned in our own lives, and in our married life together. Let's just say this principle is being driven into the marrow. The whole process has provided so much growth that otherwise would not be there, and for this I'm so thankful.
I don't want anyone to think we have heard anything about the particular situation we are waiting on. We still sit waiting:) We are just stepping forward in faith, and we will see what the Lord has.
God has provided so many wonderful promises in His perfect word that I'm just praying over and over and over to keep my mind and heart in the right place. This is huge! Those of you who know me well, know that I print out my scripture and carry it around with me like a life vest...so yesterday's verses were...
Romans 8:5-6
The mind of the sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the spirit is life and peace.
Colossians 3:15
Let the peace of Christ RULE in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.
James 4:13-17
....Instead, you ought to say, if it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that.
1 Peter 5:5-11
Humble yourself under God's mighty hand....
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in ALL circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
Romans 15:13
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you TRUST IN HIM, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Romans 11:29
For God's gifts and His call are irrevocable!!
So all that to say is keeping our thoughts stayed on Him, His plan, His purpose, and having nothing to do with anxious thoughts, or our own plans has been the challenge. These scriptures sure helped me throughout the day! My flesh so badly wants to start to fret. But in Jesus name I refuse. I'm so thankful to have a God who loves us so much!!! I can't believe the fruit being produced as we wait:)
So, I will post more when we know more. This baby we are waiting on will be born next Tuesday, so if the Lord wills, we will be heading there Monday.
It's funny, the minute you think you know something, you don't:) Or the minute you think it's going to go like this, it doesn't:)
I say it with a true smile because what I stated above, Josh and I have both learned in our own lives, and in our married life together. Let's just say this principle is being driven into the marrow. The whole process has provided so much growth that otherwise would not be there, and for this I'm so thankful.
I don't want anyone to think we have heard anything about the particular situation we are waiting on. We still sit waiting:) We are just stepping forward in faith, and we will see what the Lord has.
God has provided so many wonderful promises in His perfect word that I'm just praying over and over and over to keep my mind and heart in the right place. This is huge! Those of you who know me well, know that I print out my scripture and carry it around with me like a life vest...so yesterday's verses were...
Romans 8:5-6
The mind of the sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the spirit is life and peace.
Colossians 3:15
Let the peace of Christ RULE in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.
James 4:13-17
....Instead, you ought to say, if it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that.
1 Peter 5:5-11
Humble yourself under God's mighty hand....
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in ALL circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
Romans 15:13
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you TRUST IN HIM, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Romans 11:29
For God's gifts and His call are irrevocable!!
So all that to say is keeping our thoughts stayed on Him, His plan, His purpose, and having nothing to do with anxious thoughts, or our own plans has been the challenge. These scriptures sure helped me throughout the day! My flesh so badly wants to start to fret. But in Jesus name I refuse. I'm so thankful to have a God who loves us so much!!! I can't believe the fruit being produced as we wait:)
So, I will post more when we know more. This baby we are waiting on will be born next Tuesday, so if the Lord wills, we will be heading there Monday.
Friday, August 6, 2010
Update on what is to come....
So, since this past Tuesday we were supposed to have our conference call with the birth mom....It hasn't worked out yet. Apparently there are some phone issues on her end. She is currently in Pennsylvania with her family, and due back to Utah this weekend. This is once again proving to us that there is never a moment you are "sure" until it is legal in the state it is happening in. We did however get an encouraging call from our caseworker in Utah today. She has been so kind to check in with us every couple days. Today she spoke with the birth mom's case worker, and the case worker had once again spoken with the birth mom, and they are saying that they want the "match" with us to be official. That was nice to hear. Our caseworker in Utah said that she would like the conference call to happen first before signing contracts to be a little more sure since we have had so much trouble getting her on the phone. So everyone is planning on Monday being the day the call should happen...we shall see!:)
So the process we have yet to go through is first the conference call...then it sounds like the contracts are taken care of at that point. If all that goes well, we would drive to Utah on Monday the 16th and meet with the birth mom in person that day. If that goes well, the next day the 17th we will be parenting the sweet baby boy she births. At that point we take charge of him, but it is still not legal. The paper work has to go through the court system and then when it comes up in turn, the birth mom has to show up in court and relinquish her rights. That is the process ahead....
So, now the part that is neither legal or logical...
It was so nice to hear from my friend Lori about her adoptions yesterday...such good reminders as we approach this point of our journey. We GET to go love on a precious birth mom, and a baby, and the Lord knows the rest. We trust in his perfect plan for them and for us. We are doing our best to begin the attaching and excitement of this baby, but at the same time holding loosely to the outcome, at the same time knowing the Lord has led us to this point...so it is a daily, moment to moment thing. Now that a birth mom actually chose us I feel so moved to pray for constantly...and not for my sake, but for her...to feel the love of Jesus...for her to know that Jesus loves her, for her to realize that she is accepted as she stands right now...to experience some mercy and grace in her tough life...I'm praying that when we talk to her and meet her that we can lavish some of that on her. Such a divine opportunity...So if any of you would join me in praying, I sure would appreciate that. I haven't mentioned her name because of privacy purposes up to this point...I told my one friend earlier this is like a sweet and sour pickle...but it's the same pickle...1/2 sweet and 1/2 sour...This precious young girl is providing our second child! A dream come true for me and for us....how sweet is that? The Lord has provided everything up to this point, and how awesome is that???? Then the sour part is that this poor mama has such a rough life, and road that she has come to this point, and here is giving up her precious child...Kinda sour...but also sweet that she loved him enough to give that to him....Part of me is soooo excited and soooo happy, and part of me prays and grieves for this mama...I mean part of it is that I know how hard pregnancy is, and have had a child and I cannot fathom this. So today this is where we are and just living our life, praying and moving forward trusting God our father. Thank you Lord for this blessed time and opportunity!!
So the process we have yet to go through is first the conference call...then it sounds like the contracts are taken care of at that point. If all that goes well, we would drive to Utah on Monday the 16th and meet with the birth mom in person that day. If that goes well, the next day the 17th we will be parenting the sweet baby boy she births. At that point we take charge of him, but it is still not legal. The paper work has to go through the court system and then when it comes up in turn, the birth mom has to show up in court and relinquish her rights. That is the process ahead....
So, now the part that is neither legal or logical...
It was so nice to hear from my friend Lori about her adoptions yesterday...such good reminders as we approach this point of our journey. We GET to go love on a precious birth mom, and a baby, and the Lord knows the rest. We trust in his perfect plan for them and for us. We are doing our best to begin the attaching and excitement of this baby, but at the same time holding loosely to the outcome, at the same time knowing the Lord has led us to this point...so it is a daily, moment to moment thing. Now that a birth mom actually chose us I feel so moved to pray for constantly...and not for my sake, but for her...to feel the love of Jesus...for her to know that Jesus loves her, for her to realize that she is accepted as she stands right now...to experience some mercy and grace in her tough life...I'm praying that when we talk to her and meet her that we can lavish some of that on her. Such a divine opportunity...So if any of you would join me in praying, I sure would appreciate that. I haven't mentioned her name because of privacy purposes up to this point...I told my one friend earlier this is like a sweet and sour pickle...but it's the same pickle...1/2 sweet and 1/2 sour...This precious young girl is providing our second child! A dream come true for me and for us....how sweet is that? The Lord has provided everything up to this point, and how awesome is that???? Then the sour part is that this poor mama has such a rough life, and road that she has come to this point, and here is giving up her precious child...Kinda sour...but also sweet that she loved him enough to give that to him....Part of me is soooo excited and soooo happy, and part of me prays and grieves for this mama...I mean part of it is that I know how hard pregnancy is, and have had a child and I cannot fathom this. So today this is where we are and just living our life, praying and moving forward trusting God our father. Thank you Lord for this blessed time and opportunity!!
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
HALELUJAH!!!!
Well, I'm just in awe right now!!!!
Yesterday August 3rd we received the call that said we had been chosen by a birth mom!!!!! I was out shopping with all the females on Josh's side of the family. We were maternity clothes shopping for Tori:) I no more than put the car in park, praise God, when my phone rang...and it was Kim from Heart to Heart telling me we were the ones picked! I was instantly in tears, and all of a sudden there were two video camera's on me...I was a mess, and I don't think I will ever want to see the footage:) I was just so overwhelmed. I mean I have spent months guarding my heart trying to keep a distance slightly because it is a continuous stream of maybe's and I think we had had like 9 no's. So you just kinda pretend it's a no, while hoping it's a yes, but more than anything wanting God's good and perfect plan, but wanting it yesterday:)
So today we are having a conference call with the birth mom. Bless her precious heart! I cannot fathom...I'm so excited to talk to her and eventually meet her. With adoption, it seems there are never 100%'s...all kinds of unexpected twists and turns and leaps and bounds of faith. This precious baby boy will be born August 17th in Utah. So if all goes well, we will be driving down on the 16th to meet the mama, and then to be there the following day at the birth. I never dreamed we would be so blessed to be able to be there from the start!!! So many of the calls we received the baby was already born!
Now sweet Hudson has been just WAITING for this day!!! I have overheard so many little conversations with his cousins...He told his cousin Chade...It sure takes a long time to get a baby...Chade says, yah, it does.:) My miscarriage was almost 2 years ago, and he just has hoped and wished since for a baby brother! So yesterday I went to Old Navy and bought 2 matching shirts...one 5T and the other the smallest they had:) which was 6-12months, but it looked tiny compared to the 5T:) Then yesterday evening we gave the bag to Hudson and told him to open it and he had to figure out what the gift was. So he opened it and guessed the smaller one to be for Chade, or Sawyer....and then we kinda helped him figure it out...and then his eyes were so adorable and big and excited, and then he got up and did the weirdest dance I have ever seen in my life:) It very well might be the cutest dance I have ever seen in my life too:) He can't wait!
So that's all for now, and I will try to keep this up to speed...
Actually I don't think I posted previously what happened with this particular call...So back up to last Wed....I had received the call that the last birth mom had chose a different family and the agent Kim told me that she would be calling me again soon because they had quite a few mom's coming due...So about an hour later I got a call from her again saying would we want to be shown to this mama. I said yes, and then she said they would be giving the profiles to her on Friday and she would have the weekend to look them over and make her decision...so then yesterday we got the call:) That's how it went.
Then I just looked and the birth is one year from the adoption seminar we went to last year when we made our commitment to adopt, and December 8th last year is when I drove to the agency and gave them the application, with the check:) Josh filled out the application in August last year but wasn't ready to write the check.
Every step has been a leap of faith, and God has faithfully provided. At the start of this process financially we did not even come close to having the amount we will be needing in a couple weeks....but like I said the Lord has been sooooo faithful. We have just stepped out and watched Him provide it all, and in two weeks...God has provided for it and I'm just simply in awe.
Yesterday August 3rd we received the call that said we had been chosen by a birth mom!!!!! I was out shopping with all the females on Josh's side of the family. We were maternity clothes shopping for Tori:) I no more than put the car in park, praise God, when my phone rang...and it was Kim from Heart to Heart telling me we were the ones picked! I was instantly in tears, and all of a sudden there were two video camera's on me...I was a mess, and I don't think I will ever want to see the footage:) I was just so overwhelmed. I mean I have spent months guarding my heart trying to keep a distance slightly because it is a continuous stream of maybe's and I think we had had like 9 no's. So you just kinda pretend it's a no, while hoping it's a yes, but more than anything wanting God's good and perfect plan, but wanting it yesterday:)
So today we are having a conference call with the birth mom. Bless her precious heart! I cannot fathom...I'm so excited to talk to her and eventually meet her. With adoption, it seems there are never 100%'s...all kinds of unexpected twists and turns and leaps and bounds of faith. This precious baby boy will be born August 17th in Utah. So if all goes well, we will be driving down on the 16th to meet the mama, and then to be there the following day at the birth. I never dreamed we would be so blessed to be able to be there from the start!!! So many of the calls we received the baby was already born!
Now sweet Hudson has been just WAITING for this day!!! I have overheard so many little conversations with his cousins...He told his cousin Chade...It sure takes a long time to get a baby...Chade says, yah, it does.:) My miscarriage was almost 2 years ago, and he just has hoped and wished since for a baby brother! So yesterday I went to Old Navy and bought 2 matching shirts...one 5T and the other the smallest they had:) which was 6-12months, but it looked tiny compared to the 5T:) Then yesterday evening we gave the bag to Hudson and told him to open it and he had to figure out what the gift was. So he opened it and guessed the smaller one to be for Chade, or Sawyer....and then we kinda helped him figure it out...and then his eyes were so adorable and big and excited, and then he got up and did the weirdest dance I have ever seen in my life:) It very well might be the cutest dance I have ever seen in my life too:) He can't wait!
So that's all for now, and I will try to keep this up to speed...
Actually I don't think I posted previously what happened with this particular call...So back up to last Wed....I had received the call that the last birth mom had chose a different family and the agent Kim told me that she would be calling me again soon because they had quite a few mom's coming due...So about an hour later I got a call from her again saying would we want to be shown to this mama. I said yes, and then she said they would be giving the profiles to her on Friday and she would have the weekend to look them over and make her decision...so then yesterday we got the call:) That's how it went.
Then I just looked and the birth is one year from the adoption seminar we went to last year when we made our commitment to adopt, and December 8th last year is when I drove to the agency and gave them the application, with the check:) Josh filled out the application in August last year but wasn't ready to write the check.
Every step has been a leap of faith, and God has faithfully provided. At the start of this process financially we did not even come close to having the amount we will be needing in a couple weeks....but like I said the Lord has been sooooo faithful. We have just stepped out and watched Him provide it all, and in two weeks...God has provided for it and I'm just simply in awe.
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